Hello dear readers,
At the posting of this blog, we head into Thanksgiving 2013 and it is happenstance, but a happy happenstance, that this segment should be about significant meals.
One of the best things that ever popped into my mind, ever, sits inside the following section. If one of Nora's or Julius' (my grandchildren) offspring were to read the "Story of Venison Stew" and find its meaning, I would feel like I had actually participated in the chain of knowledge beyond being simply a link in the chain of DNA. I'll let the few of you who follow this blog in on a secret. When the greater novel in which this all sits becomes available, remember Venison Stew--it's pretty much the essential seed of this entire work.
The final wrap up to this story will probably appear the day after Thanksgiving. I could have broken this up over two weeks, but I wanted to deliver the whole banquet.
Love,
Pops
The Banquet of Silence
An entry into the pillow
book of the Eleventh Princess
I was seated in a parlor that opened
into the garden and it was there that I would greet and receive “my” guests as
they were brought through and then escorted to their places at the banqueting
tables set up outside. It was great fun. I had not seen the faces of palace
kitchen and wait staff for oh so long. And it was the first time I had seen
their spouses! Such an assortment of middle-aged working men forced into dress
garments that they were obviously dreadfully uncomfortable in—it was all too
sweet.
And
the staff ladies in their personal finery. Just one of my old palace ceremonial
garments would have paid for everything all those ladies had on, but they were
such genuine and earnest expressions of who they were—more than my clothes ever
said about me. I wanted to say something to each of them, but I had been
instructed to stay silent and that the only voice that would be heard that
night was to be my sister’s. A few of the landscapers were there as well.
I do not know how she maintains her
composure in these antics of hers and manages not to break irony, but I did
manage to do my part. It was nerve-wracking but now that I look back on it, it
was a great lark. It was as if I were 9 years old again being swept up in one
of her play adventures in the yard.
Once the palace staff guests were
all seated, Seven went out and shared a few words with them. During that time,
Silver Bird then brought forth Three and presented him to me, the source of all
this trouble. He was certainly nothing to look at, except for his
clothes—everything he had on was brash, and bright, and garishly loud. I
thought he was some kind of Arab horse trader at first. What was Seven
thinking? Was this really the crafty little man behind all the stories that the
two of them related this afternoon? She then led us out and seated all of us at
the head table. She made some brief remarks. I asked her afterward to write
them out for me, but she just handed me her working dinner plans which
contained her remarks.
“You want to hold on to this as a
keepsake?”
“Don’t want. No need. Everything is
written here,” she said holding her mid-section.
And so I took all of those
sheets—words smearing and margins stained with tears, sweat, oil, viscera,
broth, vinegar, blood, wine, and juice—and I bound them into my own personal
book, interspersed with my own remembrances of what happened that night. If
anything indeed happened. Do dreams “happen?” Those of us who were there never
spoke of it again.
* * *
Thank you for coming to Backward
Cinderella’s Banquet of Silence. Even though she cannot say so, the guest of
honor, my sister Yi, is so very pleased to see you all once again. I have
assembled you here together because you are the dearest of people to me, some
even more than my own family. You have made me a better cook and a better
person. And as I move away to a new life so far away from you all, I want to
give you this meal as an expression of my gratitude, my love, and most of all,
my loyalty. The hour is late, and so we need not do much more than taste the
things of life and therefore the courses are small, but partake of everything
that is set before you and you will enjoy what I call My Journey to the South. And so my beautiful young scholar-waiters,
let the first course come out.
Journey Begins
To All Staff: There are nine courses in the manner of a wedding banquet. Each course is only a taste of a type of food, designed to move the diner into a experience they may or may not have yet had. Each course will start with a "key," a sensory stimulant, a smell, a sound, a taste, that will remove them from the waking world into another place, where the other components of the course will take over and create dreams. You will be activating these keys throughout the banquet, so I rely on you to take the utmost care in this duty.
Course 1 - Soup: To the Moon
Key:
Flake of ash
Staging staff: Lanterns off, sound gong once
Stewards and waiters: Count to eight silently
then lift lids off soup bowls, they must all come off simultaneously. Guests
mouths will open in surprise, immediately set the first key, ash, on each
guest’s tongue.
A
covered soup bowl is set before. The midnight gong bell rings in my ear and the
lid comes off. Up comes a puff of saffron steam. The eyes close for a second
and then the full moon overhead, appears in my bowl, numinous as a large silver
coin. The bitter, oily taste of ash hits. Though it is a warm out, I am
immediately taken to a cold winter night where I have been so cold that my
bones went numb. The hot soup invites the spoon and I eat the moon, taking in
its fragrance. I take in a small breaded morsel set to the side. The taste of
rabbit spiced with cassia carries me to the moon where I sit, dining in
splendor with the Great Lady herself. We nibble on small cakes and speak in courtly
niceties when she finally she flings her arm wide. The sleeve of her gown
becomes a doorway into a moonlit forest. She arches her arm behind her head and
thus disappears.
Course 2 - Fungus: To the Woods
Key: Wild Pasture Mushroom
Staging staff: Begin chopping kindling at far
end of garden, pieces of wood are to fall and ring against one another. Start
small fires in the stone rings. Light torches. Fan smoke lightly toward the
diners. Two persons: put on boots and walk on gravel so as to make dragging and
crunching sounds.
Wait staff: Present raw bits of mushroom on
small picks to guests.
This is the second key.
I take the mushroom into my mouth.
It is bitter at first, then earthy, and finally sweet. The pungency makes me
cough at first. Then I feel nauseated. Then a highly conscious receptive spirit
takes me over and I seem ready to hear everything and anything as my eyes blur
from tears welling up. I have entered a deep forest at night through the portal
of the Moon Lady’s sleeve. I feel the roughness of the path under my feet as I
move toward faint sounds of woodcutter’s axes. The moon moves in and out of
view overhead, shining through the canopy of trees. My attention is drawn to hints
of fire light that flash beyond the tree trunks. The smell of the woods
suggests dampness and mold. The raw mushroom resists against the edges of my
teeth, pushing back with sponginess. Eventually it breaks up and small pieces
hide in the spaces between my teeth. The smell of the forest floor rise up into
my nose; the floor is covered in a thick black carpet of rotting leaves.
Course 3 – Game: To the Hunting Lodge
Key: The Sound of Knife Being Sharpened
Staging staff: Sing the hunting song, quietly and
gradually raise the volume and intensity. Booted staff then clamber about on
the wood porch and hit the boards hard with the heels. Handler noisly drops
small logs into crates, including metal rods that hit against one another. Then
all fall silent. Sound the Third Key—draw a sharping rod slowly against the
longest blade in the house.
Wait staff: Sing along with the staging staff
the hunting song. At sounding of the Third Key, then bring out the Game Course.
I
move from the chill air into the radiant heat of a hunting lodge. A huge fire
blazes, resin crackles as it is spent. A hunting party has come in and bids me
sit with them. A metal cup, filled with a grain liquor is put down with a thud,
along with a plate of sliced pears. They snap as my teeth cut into their
fibrous flesh. The skins have been left on—the skin is as tough as leather, but
in taking the time to grind it into a pulp in my mouth, I taste the juice that
carries the memory path that the water took, trickling through the soil, pulled
up through a root, carried just under the bark, sent out through the net of
branches, resting in the flower, and then in the pear.
A
small cup of steamy venison stew is set before, throwing off its perfume of
rough tastes. As I take it in, I hear youths rejoicing in their school songs.
Weapons are set at the door. Men clump up and down stairs. Young women hurry
about with trays to serve eager diners. The smells of sweat, body odor born of
stress, fear, and exertion, as well as the mud tracked in on shoes, is strong
against the nose. Then begins what is:
The First Dream Within a
Dream.
And
so the Third Son of the Duke of the Jewel River Valley took his cup of venison
stew, looked at it, and along with the other guests, noticed that it contained
a morsel of meat, red leaf choy, a clove of garlic, and a chunk of plum. “And
why,” he asked, “are these ingredients just so?”
To
which the Princess answered, “This is how my mother taught me ever to serve the
meat of the deer, as her mother taught her.”
And
a vision came, one of each mother thus advising her young daughter, generation
behind generation back through the ninth mother who said, “My mother came not
from the Manchurian Plains, but from the Steppes, and she told me, ‘We cannot
use the Steppes onion as my mother told me to, but we will use the garlic in
its place.’”
And
thus changed what every mother had advised her daughter in making venison stew,
generation behind generation, back through the ninth mother who said, “My
mother came not from the Steppes, but from the land beside the Dark Sea, and
she told me, ‘We cannot use the Feather Leaf Herb as mother told me to, but we
will use the Red Leaf Green in its place.’”
And
thus changed what every mother had advised her daughter in making venison stew,
generation behind generation, back through the ninth mother who said “My mother
came not from beside the Dark Sea, but from the Southern Hill Country, and she
told me ‘We cannot use the grape as my mother told me to, but we will use the
plum in its place.’”
And
thus changed what every mother had advised her daughter in making venison stew,
generation behind generation, back through the ninth mother who said, “My
mother came not from the Southern Hill Country, but from the Wide River Basin,
and she told me, “We cannot use the Yam as my told me to, but we will use the
Onion in its place.’”
And
thus changed what every mother had advised her daughter in making venison stew,
generation behind generation, back through the ninth mother who said, “My
mother came not from the Wide River Basin, but from the Great Valley
Where-the-Gods-Rift-the-Mountains-into-Two, and she told me, “We cannot use the
Leaf of the Acacia as my mother told me to, but we will use the Leaf of the
Green Herb in its place. She did not tell her daughter that she was also
leaving out the handful of ash her mother had taught her to put in—that
particular woman never liked the taste of ash in her stew. Nor did she say to
her daughters that she had substituted grapes for peppers—again because that is
what she liked.
And
thus changed what every mother had advised her daughter in making venison stew,
generation behind generation, back through the ninth mother who, as a newlywed
bride, did not know how prepare the meat of the deer.
Her
name was Born-at-Night and one day shortly after she had become a wife, her
husband came home after the hunt and presented to her their share. He said, “We
were given the left rear leg joint and a small viand from the same haunch.
Please prepare a stew.” He went to rest for he was exhausted.
So
she cut the viand into chunks and set that to stew with the joint in a pot of
water over slow coals. When her husband rose she placed the meal before him,
but he was surprised that she was not eating herself. He asked why.
Born-at-Night
told her husband she could not bear to eat such beautiful creatures, as she
loved to watch them jump and graze in the fields. Her husband became very
angry.
He
said, “It takes my hunting party all day and every bit of strength that we have
to chase and tire a single deer so that we may capture it. You dishonor my
party, my clan, and me by not eating. If I am your husband, how can we be man
and woman together if we do not eat the same thing?” He raised his hand to
strike her for he was young and this was the only way he knew to show his
frustration.
Born-at-Night
readied herself to rightly receive his strike, but she spoke and he stayed his
hand. “You are right Husband,” for she saw a wisdom in what he said. “I will
eat, but I must ask two things first.” He entreated her to ask. She inquired,
“Who received the entrails? And who received the head?”
He
answered, “The Rainmaker received the entrails, the Artisan the head.” So
Born-at-Night went to the Rainmaker and asked him to open the deer’s stomach.
She saw that the deer had itself eaten acacia leaves, a yam, fruit of the
pepper plant, and bark of the nut tree. She then went to the Artisan and asked
to see the head. The Artisan set the head before her. She got down on her knees
and prayed to the animal spirit.
“As
I take your life into mine, and whenever I shall do so, I shall eat the food
that you eat, so that we are both fed.” She returned to her husband carrying
leaves, roots, and fruit. She also carried some bark that had been burned to a
handful of ash. She said she would augment the stew if that were agreeable, and
it was. And so it was that as long as her children ate the flesh of the deer,
her covenant and promise to the Spirit of the Deer remained captured in the
secret of her recipe.
Course 4 – Fish and Fresh Greens: To the Meadow
Key: Sound of Crickets
Staging staff: Place cricket cages in four
points around the dining area. Coax them into song if they do not start
immediately. Restore water flow to the fountain. Use paddles to create the sounds
of random splashes, don’t overdo it.
Wait staff: Tear herbs and drop them onto
plates, then serve being sure to pass plates under guests’ noses as you set
them down. Once down, tear the paper. Remove all chopsticks and utensils. Tell
them to use fingers, and set down moist towels for clean up. Assist guests in
rolling sleeves up. Feed them if necessary.
I depart the lodge. It is daylight
out. There is a sacred mountain in front of me—I must ascend. Insects chirp all
about. I rest at a pavilion constructed for travelers and pilgrims overlooking
the silvery lake. Fish jump out of the water to capture low flying insects,
falling down into the water with pleasant splashes. I reach into my traveling
pack and find the lunch that has been packed. River fish lightly smoked, than
cooked in leaf parchment, then chilled. Bundled beside is bunch of sprouts,
scallions, pod peas, lightly glazed in vinegar, tied together with chives.
These pleasantly crunch with each bite. Juices reminiscent of spring afternoons
flood the tongue. It was food made of sunshine, wind, gentle rains, and fast
and light movements.
Course 5 – Grains: To the Place of the Gods
Key: The Sound of Ringing Bowls
Staging staff: Prepare South Phoenix for
performance. Porters in robes at the ready. Bowl handlers begin rubbing bowls
to produce pleasing, ambient hum. Give random strikes. Diminish when Qin player
begins, but never totally silent.
Wait staff: No utensils on the table. Light the
sandalwood and citrus incense censers. After removing last course, set down second
set of moist towels.
At the top of mountain I find a
temple. It a place of devotion not to any one god, but to every deity
imaginable. There are banners, statues, plaques, icons, wheels, paintings, and
items of worship of every kind. The gods depicted are happy, angry, stern, fierce,
compassionate, sorrowful, handsome, ugly, robed as kings and queens, naked as
beggars, animal and human formed, sexy and seductive, and tall and foreboding. Temple
attendants bring forth great steaming pots of the five essential grains—rice,
wheat, barley, sorghum, and millet—which are all set on the central shrine.
They scoop the grains into small cups to be distributed.
Curtains are drawn, torches lit.
Four attendants carry out a large, milk-white ball, painted with the surface
patterns of the moon in light-blue-grey which they set on a rosewood pedestal
stand. As one attendant withdraws the large metal disk that he has been holding
behind the ball, all gasp as it unfolds into the form naked girl who stretches
and then stands with her back to them. She pull an ivory comb out of her hair She
turns her head and fixes eyes one person, and then she twirls around as two
attendants slip on and fasten a lavender silk robe that echoes the color of her
eyes.
I am taken out of the dream for a
bit when I overhear my sister saying from the side somewhere:
“What is that girl doing? I didn’t
give her any such instructions! I don’t care how unabashedly she moves unclad
or how perfect her skin is. Get her off. She’s turning my beautiful, elegant
dinner into a bawdy house revue. . .”
But
the three Sisters Kuang calm her down and that passes. The moon goddess gives a
sly smile, because she knows that goddesses outrank princesses. A qin is set before her and slender, pale fingers
dance over the strings, pushing, pulling, sliding left and right. In so playing,
she brings about:
The Second Dream Within a Dream.
The full moon descends from the sky
and sits on the horizon, lighting the track of a meandering silver river that
leads like a path toward the great circle mountain that is herself. The moon sings
songs of love, remembrance, loss, and regret as a train of ferries make their
way toward the light. The ferries carry the banquet guests, each of whom find
themselves crying inconsolably into their hands, which they scoop into the
bowls of grain before them. Each guest’s meal is thus salted to the extent of
their sorrow.
I
take a handful of sorghum in my mouth and I am overcome with grief. Every grain
that I ingest becomes a tear that falls from my eyes and drops back into the
bowl.
I
take up a handful of rice in my mouth and my back and shoulders become heavy
with soreness of hard labor. Every grain becomes a drop of sweat that falls off
my forehead and lands back into the bowl.
And
so ever was it likewise with all of the grains, the making and eating of of
which is like the Great Wheel that turns us over and over. Ever building us up,
ever tearing us down, ever empowering us, ever draining us.
The
goddess of sorrowful songs eventually stops as the blue-white moon drops below
the horizon. Shots of warmed wine are passed and the guests, while spent
emotionally, now standing outside their troubles, set them aside and rest, if only for a short while.
Course 6 – Meat and Bread: To the Herdsman
Key: The smell of cut grass
Staging staff: stand by with snippers. Clip
bundles of mown grasses to release oils and smells. Piper boy stand by. Knock
the blades of shovels against rocks so that they ring.
Wait staff: Set out clean neck scarves as place
mats. Still no utensils. Grilled chunks of goat and mutton are to brought out
on clean, heated shovels and emptied on scarves. Follow up with pocket flat
wheatbreads stuffed with boiled greens. Third
component services pass by dropping edible blossoms onto each scarf
setting. Lay out another set of moist towels for cleanup.
Bits of meat are dumped from a
shovel onto the rough napkin in front of me. I take it in my mouth. The gamy
taste of char-grilled goat moves me to our next locale.
Day
has broken. I am a herder working in a high mountain pasture just down from the
sacred temple. I care for a mixed flock of sheep and goats. The day is hot.
Flowers have opened wide and attract insects, as have I. I wave away the gnats
and flies that hover about. My partner gets out his flute and plays a quiet
tune to gentle the flocks. The tough herbs that we have pulled out of the
ground and stewed all night can be rolled up into our flatbreads as we pause to
eat our afternoon meal. A third herdsman pulls a leather bag with a fitted
spigot from around shoulder and passes it around, and we enjoy a round of
squirt-sips of diluted fruit wine.
Course 7 – Traveling Fare: To the Sea
Key: The rhythmic creaking of wooden planks.
Staging staff: Begin the creaking sounds as
soon as Course 6 is struck from the table. Water handlers start pouring water
back and for between to large tubs to simulate the breaking of water against
the side of a vessel.
Wait staff: The simplest course to serve. Each
guest gets two small smoked fish and an assortment of fruits and vegetables
dried and preserved in crusts of salt or sugar, or both. No utensils. Set out
large carafes of fresh water.
I am immediately transferred onto a
boat on a long ocean voyage. My overarching feelings are nausea and boredom. I
stand on a deck staring as I have for weeks, out into a two-tone eternity of
light blue on top and dark blue on the bottom.
My
stomach rumbles in synchrony and sympathy with the creaking of the ship’s hull
timbers. I use my front teeth to scrape off meager amounts of smoked fish flesh
from a delicate bone structure. Salted plums held in the mouth are unbearably
intense. If you hold them long enough, they will try to reconstitute, but know
that they are eating you, rather than the other way around, taking precious
moisture away from your mouth, but in the end the plum loses.
The
same fare day in and day out is the fate of the traveler or sailor, and yet it
is so delicious, as it is often the only defense against boredom and death.
Course 8 – Breakfast Dumplings: To the City
Key: Clattering of many dishes.
Drummers: Throughout this course, create an
ambient base pulse at three times the speed of the resting heartbeat. VERY FAST.
The primary cadence should mimic at horse at gallop—bada-bump, bada-bump, buda-bump.
On top of that base use drums, utensils, pots and pans, shoes, anything to
maintain the beat. You must drive everyone to move swiftly.
Staging staff: Create a dull roar of shouted
orders, arguments, rebuffs, rebukes, cursing, apologies, jokes, and laughing.
Augment the wait staff. They will bring in the dishes, you will pick up the
dirties—tossing them to one another is encouraged if it can be done with harm
or breakage. False toy dumplings can be thrown to each other as well.
Wait staff: You are the keepers of the key.
Clatter dishes constantly. Feel the beat that the drumming stagers create and
do everything in multiples or fractions of that basic pulse. Run do not walk.
Make three trips back and forth instead of one. Keep everything in forward
motion, progressing in a relentless drumbeat. There will be nine different
servings to get to each diner, and keep the tea pouring.
Security staff: This will be noisy. If any
neighbor comes over to complain, hand them a generous cup of wine from Course
9. Warning: Have them sit. They will not stay conscious for long.
I take a bite of stinkfruit. It is a
taste that no one really likes, but they love that its pungent taste of rottenness
brings forth the essence of the closeness, the decay, the carelessness, and the
squalor of the extreme heat and humidity of the southern cities so precisely. I
have finally arrived in the southern port where I have come to visit an old
friend. The heat seems to accelerate all these processes of degradation, and
yet it is invigorating. I have met a friend and we have stepped out gone out
for a late breakfast, making our way through crowded hot streets. The little
shop where we have come to eat presents an abundant, unending array of small
tea cakes, one after the other. Waiters run in and out and avoid one another,
moving in perfect harmony. It is as if we are participating in some great
acrobatic dance pageant.
Course 9 – Wine, Nuts, and Fruit: To the End
Key: Celebratory Plum Wine for a Wedding
Staging staff: No active duties for this
course. Prepare to load guests into the litters.
Wait staff: Serve full cups of heated wine at
the end. There will be six or seven unescorted, unmarried females at the event.
Members of Cohort 4 will sit with each of these single females—those assigned
members may choose not to partake of the Ninth Key themselves. If you do not,
please be present and available to do whatever these women ask of you during
the course while they are under the influence of the Ninth Key.
My sister emerges from the side and
comes and sits by me. “This last course is best enjoyed by a couple, but you
are exempted and may partake alone.” She pushed a full measure of heated wine
toward me. “Drink it and see something.” I raise the cup and drink full. A
vision starts to form in my head. It is:
The Third Dream Within a Dream
A young man and a young woman dance
with each other along what appears to be a large sandy beach in a very hot
climate. They are very lightly dressed. She points over to a grove of trees and
they set out for it. It is early morning, just after daybreak. With every few
steps they take, hold one another’s hands, they become just a bit older, just a
bit less vigorous, but they remain just as pleased with each other’s presence.
As they walk children join them, first a boy, then a girl. These children
likewise grow older and eventually split away and run off in their different
directions, as the couple wave them away. They continue their walk to the
grove. They stop at some rocks. The man finds and digs up some shellfish. He
purges them, opens up their shells with his knife, separate the meat from the
shell, and they eat them together.
I hear a laugh and I am for the
moment pushed out of the vision.
I look to my right and I see that it
is Three’s laugh that I heard. It becomes clear now that Three is the man in
the vision and the woman is my sister Seven. But here they are having
delightful time together, half dwelling in the vision themselves, but observing
the guests and commenting on them to each other. She has brought out a tray
containing everything we have consumed—and they go on and on about each
ingredient.
I
look about the room and am amazed. All these old, tired husbands have come to
life are openly caressing and kissing their wives. The unmarried maidens have
all become flirtatious coquettes with the waiter boys who have taken places by
their sides. Yes, Three and Seven are enjoying the guests’ participation in
this culinary illusion that my sister has found some way to create. They seemed
so perfectly happy and contented with each other that it was unbearable for me
to be present.
Seven looks over to me and sees that
I slipped out of being a participant and had become an observer. She gave me a
look of deep gratitude and then lays her head on Three’s shoulder. Three calls
for his retainer who brings him something—it is a dagger that he then
unsheathes. He whispers something to Seven and then threatens his own neck with
the dagger. Seven calls to her attendant who brings her razor sharp carving
knife. She leans in and kisses him and then interlocks her arm with his, and
then threatens her own neck in turn. They count to three and then thrust, but
their unison thrusts restrain each other from doing harm. They repeat the
motion again, again, and yet again. I want to scream at them, but the wine
seems to be restraining me. Is this just all another dream?
They bring up their left hands and
restrain each other’s right arms, bringing them down to the table. They each
pierce their right index finger on the other’s blade tip and then hold their
bleeding wounds together, mixing their blood. They lean into one another and
kiss again. I can now hear them as they speak to one another.
“That’s as romantic a move as you’ll
ever get out of this old, practical fellow,” said Three.
“Overplayed and overly dramatic,”
said Seven. “I’ll give you six out of a possible ten.”
“Harsh.”
“Don’t talk to me about harsh. I’ve
seen what kind of punishment you can take. I can be as mean as I want to you
and you will endure.”
Seven looks at me and then whispers
to Three. He looks at me too and then speaks to me. “I should be content. For
with this feast, I feel that I have already lived a full life this woman, your
sister. And yet, I really don’t want to be in this world if I cannot be with
her. But if I leave it now to try again, she says she’s leaving too. I say it
is better world if she is in it, and so, I must be content to leave things as
they are. We are living such a cliché opera plot, wouldn’t you agree?”
“Two people should not ever be so
happy together,” I retort. “It can only result in great tragedy at some point.
That is certainly what all the poets and philosophers tell us.”
“We are already a tragedy, dear
Sister,” said Seven. “So we must enjoy what little we have. Do not worry. We
will not hurt each other or ourselves. The world has done that already to us.
We are simply drunk on each other, and it will only last a few minutes longer.
Thank you for giving us this much. Put your left hand in your lap and raise
your cup and drink once more if you wish to return to the dream.”
And so I lift my cup.
The couple continues down the beach,
but their steps falter. They have become elderly. She can no longer walk. His
back and legs remain sturdy and he lifts her up and carries her. He steps too
far to the right. She whispers to him and he corrects himself. He can no longer
see.
At last they arrive at their
favorite resting spot under the grove. She opens a bag and unties a pot of cool
porridge. She hands him a bag of nuts which he cracks with this teeth. He chews
the nuts into a coarse mash which he then spits into the porridge and she mixes
it with a spoon. She has no more teeth herself. She feeds him a spoonful and
then herself. They then argue over who has the better quality of spit between
the two of them. And then they laugh together thinking how similar this crude
meal of theirs together is to the finest bowl of bird’s-nest soup. The sun sets
and they fall asleep together.
And
then the next day dawns. The red light of the sun pushing through my eyelids
rouses me to wakefulness. Its growing warmth brings me to life.
* * *
Madame Cui
sat straight up in her bed. She was still fully dressed in her finest formal
wear. Her husband was nestled right next to her, also in his dress clothes.
“Chun! Wake up!” The man stirred and was quite surprised himself. Madame Cui
didn’t think he knew, but she asked anyway. “How did we get here? Home. Did we
dream all of that?”
“Odd,” said Chun, “we were on a bright, sunny
beach. You and I. Weren’t we?”
“Never mind
that!” said Cui, “That was utterly transformational! That girl! I’m changing
the menu for the final wedding banquet.”
“But that’s
tonight.”
“There’s
time.”
Chun was a
master carver of stone and wood. And so he was man who lived in the world of
tangible materials and precise measurement and had little patience for things
that could not be grasped in hand—ironically his specialty were depictions of
gods, demons, and dragons. Nobody made a scarier door guardian than he, but did
his own home have one? “Rubbish,” he’d say, privately of course. “He’ll protect
you from having the lintel from falling on you, but that’s about it,” is how he
joked to his fellow artisans.
That day before, his wife dragged
him home from the workshop and forced him to wash up for that silly midnight party.
But right now, he did not see her as the gray-haired, wrinkled crone that was
his partner for many decades who knew what he was ever going to say and when he
was going to say it. He saw her as the fully extended being that she was,
stretching from the young, pushy girl he first married all the way to the expert
matron of the present. And right now, he was also in touch with the young boy he
had been himself. He sat up and began to remove her garments.
“I can do
that myself,” said Cui.
“Of course
you can. But why don’t you work on undressing me instead?”
“Are you
serious?” she asked.
“There’s
time,” he said.
The entire
married kitchen staff were late to work that morning, but they all made up for
it for the good moods they were all in.
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